March 9, 2018

Surviving Maternity Leave with Two Kids

I'll admit, I was extremely naive about what maternity leave would be this time around. When I thought about going on maternity leave for Callum, I immediately imagined a three month long vacation from work. Sleeping in, drinking my coffee slowly on our front porch, going for walks with the kids. Thinking back to this pipe dream now is laughable. While my maternity leave with Cooper was pretty low key and laid back, what I didn't account for was having another human besides my newborn to care for this time around.

With Cooper, we were on an endless routine of eat, sleep, poop and repeat which gave me approximately 3-4 hours of down time in between Cooper being awake. It was awesome. I had a great sleeping baby, I was getting a decent amount of sleep myself at night, and I had no clue why people complained about how hard having a newborn was. It was easy!

With Callum, I'm on an endless routine of eat, sleep for 30 minutes, eat, sleep for 45 minutes, try to push out a poop, cry, eat get the idea. But not only do I have a routine for my newborn, but I now have a routine to try and keep for my 2 year-old! Most days I end up balancing Cal on one of my arms while I hold the bottle straight with my mouth, and try to get Cooper's lunch together. There isn't enough coffee in the world to get me through my days. And while I still drink my coffee slowly, it's not by choice and it's usually cold by the time I get started on it.

The biggest obstacle I've found this maternity leave isn't managing two children though. It's trying not to feel isolated from other adults and the world outside my house. Having winter babies is tough enough, I learned that with Cooper (also a February baby). With your first baby, people are always coming to visit you. They all want to come see the baby and ooo and ahh over him. With your second, the amount of people who come to see you cuts down to about a fourth of what you had the first time around. It's not as exciting. So while my first maternity leave, I was rarely alone in my house, this time I've found myself begging to get outside or just speak with any adult. Being home alone all day with a newborn and speech delayed toddler is extremely mentally draining. Most days I feel like the world is moving on without me and I'm stuck here. While it should be a very exciting time and I should be taking advantage of all the time I get to spend at home with my boys, I can't help but wish I was out in the world doing something for myself.

What helps? Family and friends help. My mom, mother-in-law, sister and of course husband have been great about checking in with me to allow me some time out of the house alone. Just running to the store for an hour or two by myself has been a great way for me to reset my brain and come back home ready to continue my time with my boys. Last night, my sister watched our kids for Tim and I so we could get out and grab a drink. Even though we stayed in town, it was so nice having a whole night to talk about everything other than our kids. Marriage is so easily tested when your life no longer revolves around each other, but it's so important that we make time to be a couple and not just parents. It's something I'm going to have to vow to do monthly.

We are hanging in there here at home, but there are definitely some days I question my sanity. With the nicer weather around the corner, those feelings of isolation will hopefully go away as we get some sunshine and fresh air.

February 26, 2018

Recipe: No-Bake Lactation Cookies

As a breastfeeding momma, keeping up my milk supply is crucial and can be extremely difficult if you aren't eating the right foods. I'll be honest, I'm not the healthiest eater. I'm just a sucker for pizza, tacos and chocolate.

After scouring Pinterest to find tips for increasing milk supply, I came across one of the many no-bake recipes for Oatmeal Choco-Peanut Butter cookies. YUM! Let me preface this post that this is not my own recipe. You can find the original recipe HERE.

I made the easier version this time around mostly because my local grocer didn't have Brewer's Yeast available for delivery service to make the healthier version. The link above gives you the alternate recipe, also. But I'll try it both ways and update this post with the difference in milk supply increase.

Here is the recipe:

No-Bake Lactation Cookies

Makes: About 20 cookies (dollop size)

2 cups sugar (if you don't like it super sweet, cut in half)
4 Tbl. cocoa powder
1/2 cup butter
1/2 cup milk
1/2 cup peanut butter
1 tsp. vanilla extract
3 cups oats
Wax paper

- Mix all dry ingredients (sugar, cocoa powder, oats) into medium sized mixing bowl.
- Mix all wet ingredients (milk, butter, peanut butter, vanilla) into a small pot. Heat on medium heat, stirring occasionally just until all are blended together.
- Fold all wet ingredients into mixing bowl until oats are completely covered.
- Scoop mixture of dollop sized onto wax paper. Let stand to cool about 1-2 hours.
- Once cooled, store in air-tight container.

These cookies are so delicious and addicting to eat! The only thing I'd personally change is to either melt the sugar a bit before mixing or cut the amount in half. They were a little too sweet for my taste, but if you have a sweet tooth, these are definitely the cookies for you! Also, if you have the room in the fridge, I'd even through them in there to cool a little longer so they harden a bit more. They can be a bit sticky. Otherwise, I can't wait to make these again and try some different variations. They'd probably be delicious with some dried cranberries mixed in. And they are so quick to make, I can do these any day as long as I have the ingredients on hand. 

I did notice this morning a definite increase in my milk supply when I pumped this morning. Within the first 10 minutes of pumping, I had almost an extra ounce on each side than I normally do.

Give this recipe a try and let me know what you think! I'd also love to hear any variations you add to it. 

February 22, 2018

Party of Four - Day 15

Welcome back, readers! In order to maintain my sanity over the next few months, I've decided to trial run reopening my blog. We'll see how this goes.

My sweet little boy...not only is my sweet little boy not so little anymore, but now we have ANOTHER sweet little boy that we've added to our clan.

Callum - or "Cal" - has become the next reason I live and breathe. He is a momma's boy, a cuddler, and has super sweet and gentle dark blue eyes. Just like his brother Cooper did when he was born.

With a new baby comes new challenges, though. I've now discovered I can function on less than two hours of sleep per night (not consecutively either)! I've learned how to breastfeed my newborn while simultaneously rocking a toddler to sleep, all while trying to make sure Cooper doesn't try to smack his new brother.

There's the other thing...trying to get my boys to all bond with each other has proved to be much less warm and fuzzy than I hoped it would be. Cooper has now developed temper tantrums, hitting and full blow meltdown modes. Having a speech delay doesn't help much either since he can't tell me (or choses not to tell me) what it is he wants. I'm not going to lie...I've given him the iPad on more than one occasion over the last two weeks just to get him to stay quiet for more than 5 minutes.

Meanwhile, my house is a complete disaster. I've never seen so many toys thrown across the room, my kitchen has dirty dishes all over the counters. I swear if I can squeeze a shower in for myself in a single day it's a freakin' miracle.

I can't help but feel like a terrible mother when  our life gets like this. And in reality I know I'm not, it's totally normal for him to have trouble adjusting. But society puts so much pressure on moms to figure out how to make everything work seamlessly and be the glue that holds her family together. But who can seriously live up to that?! No one. That's who.

Tonight, I plan to make Tim pick me up a big ole' box of wine, a pint of Ben & Jerry's and I'm sitting back and watching the Bachelor Winter Games in peace, dammit. God knows I need a break...<3 p="">